Comments on: I Always Felt Alone http://www.shoutinginside.com/2007/12/03/i-always-felt-alone/ Whispers in the Roar Wed, 19 Nov 2008 05:30:06 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.3.1 By: Jordan http://www.shoutinginside.com/2007/12/03/i-always-felt-alone/#comment-424 Jordan Tue, 09 Sep 2008 21:44:47 +0000 http://www.shoutinginside.com/2007/12/03/i-always-felt-alone/#comment-424 I always thought my mom thought she was alone. She always went on about why no one would help her, and that nobody wanted to help her. I always thought, wow, if you cant see that they do want to help, you are blind. There were times I would stay up late at night, wondering where is my mother. You see there where times when she would disapper for a few weeks, and i think the longest was a few months. There were times i thought she was dead, or was missing. Things where pretty bad. I hated it. I had written her letters. All types of letters.Hate letters, sad letters, bad letters. I could only speak my mind truly through words. I had talked to my mom, and she told me she only stayed alive during her addiction because of us. I would think, wow, she really could of been dead, during those nights. I always thought my mom thought she was alone. She always went on about why no one would help her, and that nobody wanted to help her. I always thought, wow, if you cant see that they do want to help, you are blind. There were times I would stay up late at night, wondering where is my mother. You see there where times when she would disapper for a few weeks, and i think the longest was a few months. There were times i thought she was dead, or was missing. Things where pretty bad. I hated it. I had written her letters. All types of letters.Hate letters, sad letters, bad letters. I could only speak my mind truly through words. I had talked to my mom, and she told me she only stayed alive during her addiction because of us. I would think, wow, she really could of been dead, during those nights.

]]> By: Jessica http://www.shoutinginside.com/2007/12/03/i-always-felt-alone/#comment-179 Jessica Sat, 07 Jun 2008 21:41:39 +0000 http://www.shoutinginside.com/2007/12/03/i-always-felt-alone/#comment-179 Michalene, I finally read "Lost in the Shuffle" - you are right, it's an excellent read. Growing up my mom constantly told us to go easy on the "old man" because he was a drunk (I now realize he was an alcoholic)...she always apologized for him by using this excuse and you know what, I've come to realize that's exactly what it is ...an excuse - nothing more. He needs to acknowledge all the shit he brought into our lives as kids but I know he never, ever will because I'm pretty certain he will never, ever get sober. Michalene, I finally read “Lost in the Shuffle” - you are right, it’s an excellent read. Growing up my mom constantly told us to go easy on the “old man” because he was a drunk (I now realize he was an alcoholic)…she always apologized for him by using this excuse and you know what, I’ve come to realize that’s exactly what it is …an excuse - nothing more. He needs to acknowledge all the shit he brought into our lives as kids but I know he never, ever will because I’m pretty certain he will never, ever get sober.

]]> By: carl http://www.shoutinginside.com/2007/12/03/i-always-felt-alone/#comment-168 carl Tue, 20 May 2008 03:20:03 +0000 http://www.shoutinginside.com/2007/12/03/i-always-felt-alone/#comment-168 It's been years since my dad died and as I get older I realize I have some of his traits. I like him suffer from low self esteem. One can have all the money in the world but without self love it has no meaning. I sadly understand how lonely life can be. Hang in there. It’s been years since my dad died and as I get older I realize I have some of his traits. I like him suffer from low self esteem. One can have all the money in the world but without self love it has no meaning. I sadly understand how lonely life can be. Hang in there.

]]> By: Cheryl from Missouri http://www.shoutinginside.com/2007/12/03/i-always-felt-alone/#comment-9 Cheryl from Missouri Thu, 13 Dec 2007 08:52:44 +0000 http://www.shoutinginside.com/2007/12/03/i-always-felt-alone/#comment-9 Vikki, wow you said that a lot better than I ever could. I had same kind of situation and told my dad to get out of my life and I really miss him but I don't miss all the drama. He's getting older now and I feel bad that I don't see him anymore but it's too hard especially now around xmas cause I have lots of horrible xmas morning stories-- not the least of which is dad, still drunk, knocking over the tree. Vikki, wow you said that a lot better than I ever could. I had same kind of situation and told my dad to get out of my life and I really miss him but I don’t miss all the drama. He’s getting older now and I feel bad that I don’t see him anymore but it’s too hard especially now around xmas cause I have lots of horrible xmas morning stories– not the least of which is dad, still drunk, knocking over the tree.

]]> By: Sarah http://www.shoutinginside.com/2007/12/03/i-always-felt-alone/#comment-8 Sarah Sat, 08 Dec 2007 20:32:51 +0000 http://www.shoutinginside.com/2007/12/03/i-always-felt-alone/#comment-8 I bet you have some holiday stories to tell, my step-mom is also a big drunk and she has managed to ruin many a xmas for me. This time of year seems to bring out the worse of her. I bet you have some holiday stories to tell, my step-mom is also a big drunk and she has managed to ruin many a xmas for me. This time of year seems to bring out the worse of her.

]]> By: Michelene http://www.shoutinginside.com/2007/12/03/i-always-felt-alone/#comment-7 Michelene Tue, 04 Dec 2007 14:29:06 +0000 http://www.shoutinginside.com/2007/12/03/i-always-felt-alone/#comment-7 Hey Vikki I can relate to unpredictability being a part of life. There is a great book by Robert Subby called Lost in the Shuffle. He was the first person I heard say that everyone can say excuse them because they were alcoholic and did the best they could. He said but they hurt you and he acknowledge the hurt and then he said when you are a child you are a victim but if you let the feelings from those past events run your life you become a volunteer. That has been very empowering to me about many things. His book of course goes on and on with understanding and coping. I loved it and recommend it to everyone that was a childhood victim of a dysfunctional family. Thanks for your story Michelene Hey Vikki

I can relate to unpredictability being a part of life. There is a great book by Robert Subby called Lost in the Shuffle. He was the first person I heard say that everyone can say excuse them because they were alcoholic and did the best they could. He said but they hurt you and he acknowledge the hurt and then he said when you are a child you are a victim but if you let the feelings from those past events run your life you become a volunteer. That has been very empowering to me about many things. His book of course goes on and on with understanding and coping. I loved it and recommend it to everyone that was a childhood victim of a dysfunctional family. Thanks for your story Michelene

]]> By: Jennifer http://www.shoutinginside.com/2007/12/03/i-always-felt-alone/#comment-6 Jennifer Tue, 04 Dec 2007 00:20:12 +0000 http://www.shoutinginside.com/2007/12/03/i-always-felt-alone/#comment-6 Your story is a lot like my mine, only mine is about my step-dad. I've been doing a lot of thinking about how much I hated him...I always wished him dead and now he is but I don't feel a whole lot better. Your story is a lot like my mine, only mine is about my step-dad. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about how much I hated him…I always wished him dead and now he is but I don’t feel a whole lot better.

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